It is 2014 and have thought about the many missed photographic opportunities that I missed throughout the year(s).

One in particular is a barn that was close to home that I have wanted to photograph for many years. It is a typical 19th century New England barn with some great features. While it was red I had always pictured it in monochrome and studied the shadows at the different times as I drove by throughout the years. It had fallen into disrepair so age was a concern as was safety if I wanted to get close or inside the structure.

I did want to get close though but I was always to busy, rushing from home to work or from work to home. I'd pass it whenever I went shopping or to a friends house. I passed it when driving my children around. I pass it many times but only looked. Thinking that I should stop and ask the owner for a tour and a history lesson about the barn and land. But never stopped.

Then about a month ago the land was put up for sale and the add stated that anyone could view the property, but at your own risk. There it was, easy to approach, without the need to worry of the owners rejection of entry. I could go in an explore more details of light shining through the cracks onto the walls or through the large opening in the roof.

Still, I waited.

Then, about a week or two ago, on my typical drive home I realized that time and machinery changed the light forever. Someone had purchased the home, barn, and land and had changed my opportunity forever. The land was empty and the entire barn was gone forever, loaded as scrap wood into the back of a tractor trailer. My time of waiting and wondering was wasted. Never again would I get the chance to capture the intriguing light that danced around the building and shadows.

It was with a heavy sigh that I realized all those photographic images rushing from my memories. Images not from prints, my computer, nor my camera. The images are only a memory that I cannot share with others; friends, family, my wife or my children.

My resolution is not to let it happen again.

To capture more.

To carry my equipment more, to explore more, to see more.

And if possible, share and blog more.